My Favorite Topic

Sometimes it seems like people get uncomfortable when I say your name.  It's like they don't know how to react when you come up in conversation.

I've begun to second-guess myself.  Am I just being a big downer and making people sad at the mention of you when they have to remember you're gone?  I guess it's different for me because I always remember that you are not here.  But it is your absence that makes me sad, not the thoughts of you.

We had so many great adventures and I have so many amazing memories of you, that you are still so alive to me.

I can't help it.  You are my favorite topic. I want to talk about you all of the time. I love it when others remember you and share memories of you with me.  It's all I would talk about if I could.

But there are times when the conversation turns to you and people just freeze for a moment.  It reminds me of the way you used to deliberately say something shocking just to see how people would react.

So babe, you're still occasionally making conversations awkward like you loved to do.  I just bet that makes you smile.

I love you Daniel.